Mood: Depressed and Angry at herself
Currently listening to: Atlantic by Thrice

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Ok. It's New Year's Eve and everyone's group messaging their greetings. The usual things that a person sometimes feel he/she is obligated to do so. I for one, haven't said my greetings to my friends. Well, except for one person, but I was h**** at that time.

So why haven't I said my greetings?

Simple.

I can't say the h word. That and I'm not feeling the spirit right now.

To make it more simple, I'm angry at myself. A lot.

Why?

Well...I lost my pet. What a wonderful event to end the year. Seriously.

Damn, I still can't get over the fact that I spent 200 pesos and 10k zenny over that freakin' poring just to make it talk, be well fed, loyal...Ok...I admit, I spoiled ~*paopao*~

But I like that goddamn poring. It was there when I'm being harassed by a bunch of players just to get heals and buffs. It was there when I first saw the guy who made me squeal like a fucking little girl with a fucking little crush. It was there when I tried to escape that evil miniboss. It was freakin there when I was attacked while I was resurrecting my friend.

And now it's gone.

Weeks of feeding it and trying to make it loyal are in vain...it'll never come back now.

And goddamn it, me in my critical mode isn't helping either.

I think you'll notice it...Never had I shamelessly posted a freakin' post that is full of curses.

Hn. Whatever. I hope I'll feel better after 4 hours (as what Victoria stated when I said I won't be happy for a month).

Labels: Bitching, New Year, PMS-ing

Mood: Not really happy...and tired. Very tired.
Currently Listening to: Don't Tell Me by Avril Lavigne (I don't like her new songs...really.)

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Ok...this is officially my 68th post. Oh yes...a year has gone and yet I still haven't reached my 100th post. Am I lazy of what?

Anyway, the Family Day is just around the corner (actually, it's already on Saturday) and damn, our class is already abusing our bodies just to freakin' win. Yes, we are determined whether it's 2nd or 1st place but first place is SO MUCH better. Actually, if you ask me, the dance steps our choreos made are good. Some of my friends said that we still need to work on our synchronization. Well, what we really need to focus on is our projection.

I super duper love love LOVE our fans. I love the color. I love the design. I love the concept. Overall, I love everything about it. Although there were problems that occurred, we found a way to make it work. And I so pray to God that it will work. And I love our head dress too.

Moving on, what is currently happening to my life?

Well, to start of, I live in a house of Silence. Silence. I never really hated that word. But when I'm described as silent, or rather, the word silence/silent is associated to me, more often it is not a good sign. It can mean that I'm in a bad mood, or I'm not really focused. It can mean that I'm pissed at someone or I'm already imagining a person dying in front of me.

Honestly, if I have a choice, I would leave this damned place. Everything here annoys me. The silence, everything, even the people here.

ANYWAY...

I just saw recently Avril's new video, entitled 'Hot.' Honestly, I want the old Avril back. This new Avril is weird...is flirty....GAH. What the hell happened to her? -twitch-

Oh...and I enjoyed last night's Celebrity Deathmatch episode. Paris vs. Nicole! YEY.

And before I forget, thanks to Marlo and Aren for helping us do our props! Love you dears.

Labels: Bitching, Dance Pro, School Dilemmas

Mood: Tired
Currently Listening to: Sick Cycle Carousel

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Ok...I would like to thank super typhoon 'Egay' for the extended weekend. Thank you darling, you made my month even better. Ok...I'm already talking to a typhoon...I have issues. Anyway, as much as I want to enjoy this break, I can't. Why? Well, my internet card just hates me. I mean, it takes 35 times (I estimated it) just to freakin' connect and yet the speed is only 19 kbps. FOR THE LOVE OF --!

Anyway, since internet is REALLY hard to obtain, I turn to the phone. And who's the unlucky person who is forced to talk to me? Aren. Oh well, thank you dear, for putting up with me and my whiny bitchiness thingy mode. Whatever. Let's just fangirl together! Along with Marlo! YAOI FOR ALL!

-ehem-

Today I ended up getting so damn tired to the point that I'm already lying while I wait for the internet to connect. Why? I was dragged to my aunt's wedding, then to a Baptismal ceremony then to the pc store for the usb drive. Damn I'm tired. And then fanfiction.net starts bitching again. Argh. Could this day be any worse?

Oh well, don't mind me, I'm just stalling. Stalling for what? Well, I don't really feel like memorizing right now. Sagutan Dayalogo isn't something I enjoy, sorry.

Before I end this pointless/senseless post, I would like to congratulate myself for finding a couple of RiSo oneshots that are well-written. I admit, I did cry in one of those oneshots. (Aren was forced to listen to my whines and decided to tell a happy story for me to cheer up. Thanks dude!)

So yeah...I've got no more things to post...so bye!

Labels: Bitching, Kingdom Hearts, RIKUSORA LURVE, Storm Relief, Tired as Hell, Yaoi

Mood: Irritated
Currently Listening to: Queer by Garbage

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Okay...I'm supposed to be studying than bitching here. Oh well, I've already finished Religion but I've got this dilemma of not knowing what to study next. It's not really my fault. Why? Well, for some reason, a lot of students are group messaging about our schedule in the test. And let's face it, every gm is different from another. Some say there'll be classes on Saturday, some say there'll be 3 tests on Saturday and many other things.

I admit, when I'm studying I'm a bit stressed out. And when I look at my cellphone and see those kinds of group message, I get really irritated. And when I'm irritated, I can't study. I just want to bite someone's head off right now.

Why can't people just shut up and wait? Those group messages aren't helping anybody. They just make others confused. And then they say that the admin sent that message, oh c'mon people, even our teacher doesn't know about that message.

Why don't we just try to tone down the forwarding of messages and study? I'm already tempted to turn off my cellphone but somehow I manage to stop myself since I'm still wishing that someone would send something logical and factual that would make me calm down.

Oh well...I'll just wish myself good luck.

Labels: Bitching, Paranoia, School Dilemmas, Storm Relief

Mood: Extremely Moody
Currently Listening to: Here In Your Arms by Hellogoodbye

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Okay...I guess most people know that a pms-ing girl is scary when she took something rather offensively and the like. So, most likely it's best not to annoy her during those 'days.'

I'll get to the point. I'm currently not in my best self because of a problem. (hint: read the first two lines.) Anyway, I don't really like it when someone rants about her crush/interests nonstop. I don't really like it when someone tells me 'whatever' when I'm already in my 'I'll bite your head off' mode. But what I DON'T HONEST TO GOODNESS LIKE is when someone who already knows that I'm pissed and ready to bite someone's head off but still ignored those aforementioned and won't leave me alone...with the speech of her undying love for someone (who I don't really care about) on the side.

No. Five days is already enough and I'm at my breaking point. I can't continue going to school, hearing the same speech, go home, go online and get another shot of the same speech.

PLEASE. JUST. STOP. THE. MADNESS.

I just want to have a normal school day with my friends and classmates WITHOUT hearing any oh so wonderful epistle of the undying love to a teacher. PLEASE JUST ONE DAY OF SILENCE IS ENOUGH.

I never really meant to post this kind of stuff but really, I need a break. And this is the only solution I can come up with. I'm already stressed because of schoolwork...I need to release it somehow.

That and my wanting to watch Harry Potter 5.

Yes, my life is sad.

Oh yeah...I'll answer the survey from Lara tomorrow. I need to get back to reading...and calm myself before I explode.

I love my new layout! Heheheh...

Labels: Bitching, New Layout, PMS-ing

Mood: Tired...nuff said
Currently Listening to: Dirty Little Secret
Patience Level: 79%

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I know, I know, I haven't posted for a few days and yes, I haven't reach my goal of having 100 posts. It hasn't reached half of it yet. ANYWAY, again, since I'm in my I-want-to-post-but-I-don't-know-what-to-post mode, I apologize if this post is again, not making any sense at all.

Moving on, recently I spend my time reading fanfictions in the KH section. Usually, I read Romance, Angst, Drama and Humor. And yes, the pairings are yaoi or boy to boy. (I'm weird, I accept.) Of course, having to encounter PERFECT people in fics are sometimes inevitable. Actually, I get VERY uncomfortable when I encounter these characters and sometimes decide to not read that certain fic anymore. These characters are labeled as Mary Sues and Gary Stus (sp?). Who made these names? I don't know.

So, how can we say if these certain character is one of their kind? One word hun, they are PERFECT. Really. Sexy, beautiful, very intelligent, you name it. It also includes the fact that they have a SAD SAD past. Abused or whatever. Here's one part in the fic/satire I'm currently reading that describes/alert people that there is a Mary Sue in your area:

“They’re not supposed to be real!” Vexen hissed, sticking close to his comrades.

“But it is. It’s real—it’s…” Lexaeus stammered.

“A Mary Sue,” the three of them gasped in horror.

“HEY! I am SO not a Mary Sue!” Sakura-Rose halted her threatening charge and triumphantly righteous speech, placing her hands on her hips in protest. “I have FLAWS! Like my stepdaddy beats me and he’s SOOO MEAN! And I only got second place in my school spelling bee, and my class rank is only 3rd out of 247!”

“What do we do—what do we do?” Xaldin understood something was very wrong the moment he began to panic. “She’s got a Keyblade—she’s going to destroy us!”

-twitch-

Honestly, Mary Sues scare the heck out of me. I mean, c'mon, who wants to read a story wherein your favorite character is paired up with someone who's TOTALLY perfect and yeah...you get the idea. Anyway, based on my observations, some people creates this to fulfill their needs in terms of romance with their favorite characters which is obviously, someone they cannot have.

So yeah, it is really recommended to people/writers to avoid these kind of OCs. OCs meaning your original characters.

Labels: Bitching, Kingdom Hearts

Mood: annoyed
Currently Listening to: Demolition Lovers
Patience Level: 25%

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Ok...before I start, I would like to dedicate this to all the fucking bitches posers found..well, almost everywhere. Actually, when I started this blog I have no plans whatsoever to make a post or in this case rant about posers and such. But, thanks to a certain fucking idiotic poser I was forced to do so. Oh yeah, the title is from Fall Out Boy's This Ain't A Scene It's An Arms Race. I would like to dedicate that line to a certain poser which most of my friends including me LOVE to hate.

Anyway, what is it with me and posers anyway? Well, call me a hypocritical bitch whatsoever but the sight of them well, ticks me off. I mean just because some band or something just pops out and became famous they'll come out of their dens and say "HEY LOOK AT ME I'M A DIE HARD FAN!' then calls herself/himself a 'rakista' just to blend in with the others. Well, I could still sometimes tolerate that. But what I REALLY FUCKING END OF THE WORLD HATES is this kind of posers:

Imagine, a band which was not so famous in the past came in and well, became oh so famous that it hit the mainstream section. Now, a certain poser sees this and then supports the band and obviously calls herself rakista. She puts pictures, videos etc connected to that band in her profile. She even calls herself emo just because the band was labeled emo even though they aren't. Then, another band pops out and gets famous too. Again, the poser sees this and what did she do? She removed all the pics and videos of the other band and replaces them with the pics and videos of the 'new' band.

Honestly, those kinds really tick me off. I mean what kind of fan do you think you are? Just because another one pops out, you'll neglect the other one like 'oh this is alright, I'm still a rakista anyway'.

And yeah, to that certain poser, I would like to say one thing: If you're planning to say you're a fan of FOB, please know the CORRECT title of their song and please know how to make a CORRECT review.

'Bato-bato sa langit, matamaan, matamaan sana...' Ms. Delia San Andres

Labels: Bitching, Posers

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